Christmas

"Oh christmas tree, Oh christmas tree.. Dum dum dee dum.. dum dum dum."

Oops sorry I forgot the lyrics to the rest of it. Only know the starting or was it the first line of the chorus. Gah! Whatever it is. Christmas is coming. Something we people who celebrate it look forward too. So this year is going to be different. Very different as in this year we are going overseas to celebrate. Yay!! With my cousins from abroad whom I've not seen since 2006 if I'm not mistaken.

I've got my christmas shoe, dress, hat, earrings & what-so-ever. The most important thing is the dress & heels which did not cost me a bomb unlike the past 2 years. So this year is going to be simple but classy. Ain't that great. With that would be new resolutions for the new year & hopefully new achievements.

I finally found my christmas spirit after spending the weekend in Terengganu. Ah! Terengganu! How I love the beaches there. The crystal clear water with slimy sea cucumbers & colourful fishes & corals. Simply beautiful! If only I had an underwater camera then it would be perfect! Immaculate!

The time has come for me to achieve different goals & reach greater heights. No more falling back to where all is forgotten & unappreciated. It is time for a new beginning, a new goal, a new year. The year is about to end what more a new start for the new year. The same person but with new goals.

With this I sing... MY LIPS LIKE GULAAAAA!!!!

A wish upon a star

You realize how we all wish time would go faster or time would remain as it is. I always wanted time to go faster not to remain. Till I actually met this one person & from that one person I met another & got closer to people I was not before.

Now how I wished time didn't change & things would remain the same. I wished that the fun times I used to have with these people I care dearly still remain there & that they're always a call away. But now only 2 people are a call away. What's 2 with the lack of 3 or 4. You know once you're a group & 1 person is no longer there the fun tends to be limited or decreased. It's just how a pack of lion moves. I wished that time didn't fly so fast & shit does not happen we could all be living in our once perfect life (or so we thought)

I wished I really wished. 1 move is all it takes to ruin another life. It only takes 1 move.

I live life as it is

What ever is planted in front of me I will make it as mine. So what ever that happens in life, happens for a reason. Can I say my life is perfect? Nope because it is not but I sure can say that my life is really full of obstacles & triumph. Each step I take I move forward I look at the future possibilities and I dare to try new things. Even though there are set backs and mistakes but I learn from them and try not to repeat them which sometimes fail to no avail but I still give it a try.

When people just don't want me to be in their life. I'll just say goodbye and never look back but move on. If you have made a decision without me and you're head-strong about it so be it. I move on and wouldn't care 2 sens about you. Life is a journey. There are bumps here and there, ups and downs and roundabouts but that is life. How are you to improve yourself if your journey is like a straight road. Haha! Think about it.

Sometimes I come across people I never expected them to be such characters. What more people which I've known my whole life but my mother always taught me that "what goes around comes around". So I am learning to forgive and forget. Why stress on something that you know would bring you nothing but more pain. So let it go and move on. Ain't that true?

In life there are needs for some secrecy if not how can life be interesting if people knew everything about you. =) So hehe.. I live life as it is. People come and people go. Challenges come and overcome. To be or not to be. What ever it is. God is always there for us. Although I'm not a staunch Catholic but I do pray to God the Father and go to church on Sundays or try my best to make it if I've something up on a Sunday.

Devil in Disguise

I sit at the sidelines overlooking everything. I keep mum because I don't want to be mistaken as a nosy-body. As much as I keep quiet about things I do see what is happening around. I don't avenged or revenged anyone, I just let God take it into his hands. Secretly I curse under my breath that someday you'll regret. Like how I secretly curse & allow God to take matters into his hands, you have regretted that decision.

What a laugh to see you as is. Mourning & weeping at your very own door step. My mother taught me "what goes around comes around". I do not place myself in situations so vulnerable. I let people do the talking for me because it is not my intentions to get down & gritty only if it's in dire need.

I'm a devil in disguise. I say nor do anything. It is what you say & do is what makes me your worst nightmare. My time has come to prepare myself for new challenges. It is the beginning of an end. The start of something new. My prayers are for all the lost souls, that you would find your way back to the right path. =)

AMEN!!

09/09/09 = Mad Dog's Day

Today is my day! 9 in cantonese means Dog. My dear haler calls me Mad Dog because my jersey is No.9 & I'm always crazy in other words entertaining. So yes it might seem degrading but it's all in the world of fun. Each & everyone of us has a nickname. Hence, Mad dog is one of those nicknames I have.

How has your 09/09/09 been? Mine was awesome. A wonderful day. Nothing crazy I did but I wished I did. This day wouldn't come anymore. So yes live it whilst you can. Good news was the headlines for today & I'm getting myself a new handset just because I want it. Now I wished I had a brand new car too. A honda civic would be nice. =)

Your Ex: Lover or Hater?

How many of you are friends with your ex? How many of you still keep in contact with your ex? Is it so wrong to actually be friends with your ex? Why are people dissing the idea that you can be friends with your ex even after a break up?

A "girlfriend" or "boyfriend" is a friend that you have an intimate relationship with. So it would have been a relationship that meant for then a normal friend once upon a time. Does that mean that once the "intimacy" is gone you still can't be friends? I object!

Alright so your ex dumped you for another person, so your ex was an ass or a bitch, so your ex lied or treated you badly. You have every right to cease all communication with that person but that is up to an individual. You can't go around dissing other people just because they're still friends with their ex. If you're a friend you should just respect maybe there's a reason for them being friends. You wouldn't know, right? So you should let it be.

Each & everyone of us think & act differently. You can never judge a person on how they think all you can do is just give advices or guidelines the rest is up to them. If you think that your friend is doing or acting foolishly just advice don't go tell them "you should stop doing that because I don't like it & it's plain dumb". Nah nah!! You should just tell them that what they're doing is wrong & guide them the right way out. That's a right way. Obviously you got to be nice in telling not sound like you're ordering them to do something.

Question of the day: What are you going to do if 5 years from now you would have to work in the same company with that ass of an ex? Are you going to keep that hatred towards the person over a matter that was 5 years old? Think about it. =)

Work & Pleasure = Never Mix

Life has been pretty good these days. Looking back at the months I've completely forgotten about the other joys of life beside dating is devastating. Wake up call has been rung. Tada! I used to be a person who makes work with pleasure. I was an imbecile & naive at that time. After a wake up call was rung I finally realize that it wasn't the best choice nor the right move.

Hey! Everyone has to learn from their mistakes, right. What stupid thing to do if you don't learn from your mistakes. We all make mistakes & that is the fact of life. We learn from it & become a much better person because we know where we went wrong. Mixing work with pleasure is a really bad thing. You get things really topsy-turvy if you made the wrong move. Hence, try not to do all that.

I learned it & now putting it into practice. Sometimes we all need to grow up we can always be kids but at times we just need to act maturely. =) But acting like someone you're not is really a put-off. So try not to stray too much from your original character because it may hurt people & sometimes cause people to look with you with a sneer.

On another note, foot reflexology after futsal is awesome. It's like swimming on a hot sunny day. That's how refreshing it is. Why foot reflexology all of sudden? Well today is my first time. Let's say i'm a virgin to professional massages but I'm no longer am. Cool! Thanks to my cousin who paid for it which made much more awesome I am no longer a massage virgin. =)

1 Malaysia

I'm the tomboy who plays multiple sports with a chinese name, a malay face, speaks english but has a malay accent when spoken to in malay, sadly no chinese is in my vocab & I come from a multiracial family.

I AM MALAYSIAN

Going uphill

Life is like a journey up to Bukit Tinggi,

It is a zig-zag road that could make your head spin 360 degrees,

At some points a blind spot would appear & you wouldn't 

be able to see what is ahead of you.

Life is a journey uphill.

Yesterday was my first journey up to the hills. My first journey driving I meant. It was awesomely cool & would love to do it again. Although the air wasn't as chilly as it used to be but the company was awesome. There wasn't much to do in Bukit Tinggi. We only went up to just walk but soon got chased out because there weren't pets allowed in the resort. Pfft! So much for a "french themed" resort. My arse! Next time you should put up a BANNER to state "NO PETS ALLOWED". How could you be a french themed resort when you do not allow pets to enter yet again sit at the restaurant. The french are famous for bringing their pets around even to dine with them. Pfft! What bull shit!

Merdeka this year wasn't as colourful as previous years. So much for "1 Malaysia". Everyone is basically paranoid about H1N1. =(

The cat is out of the beg

Many people has their dislikes & likes about me. Many has also pre-assumed me before even getting to know me. Now let's get the cat out of the beg shall we.

Firstly, I am person with many personalities. Different people see the different side of me. It's not a disorder, it's something I naturally built when I was growing up. So I am the mysterious person. I am defined as a tomboy, an arrogant person, a joker, a true friend, an athlete, an animal? Like I said many people has different assumptions of me so it isn't their fault because of my many characters.

Secondly, I don't give 2 cents what people think about me. I have lived by that ruled but recently that rule has been changed by people not of my concerned. Basically I was blinded by love at that point & that's how I felt the pain of changing into someone I am not. But all that was a phase & like all phases I manage to pull through with a special friend by my side & very supportive parents.

I'm a dupe to have to find my real self through the eyes of someone else. The person has made me realize what I am good at & coax me into doing the things I am good at. It also sucks that I have lost my 2 best friend to the world. No! They didn't died, they just moved on without me. Just like I always says what goes around comes around. Well I deserved it because at one point I abandoned the one true friend who has always been there for me over a boy. Life's a journey & we learn from our mistakes.

Recently, my life took a big U-turn. It gave me a very big slap in the face to wake up into reality. Just last week I was brooding over my first break up. It was bad! My whole world was topsy-turvy for a few days but lucky me at least the guy didn't left me alone. He managed to be there when he is needed like he always does but not always. Anyhow, I manage to pull through & God works in wonderful ways. It was just the perfect timing because now I can focus more on achieving my initial goals just minus the laziness. Also, many thanks to him I found that writing was something I'm a natural at but needs a lot of improvement.

A person once said that I am heartless & an animal. Why? Because I told the person to move on & stop stepping back into the past. Just like always people mistaken my advices for insults thus like always they're at the back of the class. Left out. =) Other people said I am arrogant because I don't greet them, I own 2 new toyota(s) & I have an arrogant face. Ahem! I don't greet people if I don't see them & it isn't me who owns 2 brand new cars, it's my parents.

See those are a few examples of how people perceived me. Sometimes it isn't their fault like I said. They misinterpret me & like I always do, I ignore them. Let's say life now is a beginning of a new chapter, a resurrection from the old self which is a relief. Like always I will carry on doing what I do best. I have a thirst for trying new things. At least I am a jack of all traits or shall I say A JANE OF ALL TRAITS. It is a 'Jane' because I am not a guy.

Humour runs in my blood hence feel free to laugh at upcoming posts or pictures. I sure would love entertaining you with the jokes of my life. Till the next time.